The night when everything just stay as its bad...

I don't know what exactly had happen to me, I've planned so many things, a lot of things, good things of course, but till I write this one it seems so hard to be done, very hard, too much hard..

Do I need some motivation..? (I think I can do this alone, but just like usual my plans, my thoughts was never going through well)
If so, then I really need my motivation, so where the fuck is my motivation..?
WHERE does it hide or WHO was it be..?

GOD please give me some beautiful minds...
Alone or with them, I just wanna make this more better, a lot better...

hopefully hopereally