How I Feel, How I Tell, How I Make You Believe...

This week has been more complicated since I did it Monday ago...
I was fell for her, at first it seems like everything's gonna be fine, but when I really mean it, I did it, then this tangled has just begun...
We talk about something flirty, talk about caring each other, talk about love, but back then everything just go unclear, was that a joke, yes it was, and I believe that every staid things was start from the random flirty jokes...
Finally, I just can't hold it any longer, so I come to this serious feeling, I fell for you, I crush on you, and that was too damn real, I'm veracious...

Something has changed, you've been changed since that day, I ask you that question, whatever your answer, this feeling won't leave easily...
I do really love you...
I mean it...
I really mean it...

Tomorrow night, ready or not, give me your answer...

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I need to see people, I need to do something with my brain...

I'm just thinking this is getting worse...
"what to do" still flowing on this mind...
somehow I realize I need them, I wanna speak...
I think every words that just spill out have lead to an impression...
I wanna impress them, I wanna show all of you that I'm capable...
It's not about being selfish, but this is a way of something that can make me better...
Finally, I just need my mouth say something to all of you, not being quite silent as midnight...

I need to speak so this brain won't go stuck...!!!

It was ours, take care of expanding it...

The plan with too much earlier support

My plans was already perfect before they always keep me confused...
They said I've got to go now, my plans said I've got to wait first...
I understand, clearly understand there must be something good about what they have told me...
But I think my plans were much much more better, that was I've thought...
Do I get it..? of course indeed, I get it what exactly you are talking to me..
But again I'm just thinking I'm better with my own rules, at least for this time...

Thank you very very much for your support, but I think I was right where I'm supposed to be now...
Time will tell, thank you for your concern, I'm sorry I can't I persist...

Mine Left Theirs Right

The night when everything just stay as its bad...

I don't know what exactly had happen to me, I've planned so many things, a lot of things, good things of course, but till I write this one it seems so hard to be done, very hard, too much hard..

Do I need some motivation..? (I think I can do this alone, but just like usual my plans, my thoughts was never going through well)
If so, then I really need my motivation, so where the fuck is my motivation..?
WHERE does it hide or WHO was it be..?

GOD please give me some beautiful minds...
Alone or with them, I just wanna make this more better, a lot better...

hopefully hopereally